28.2.05

Untitled



I blame the pain I’ve been through
The things I’ve tried to do
For my childish way of being
Endless nights shown to me
Sex and violence for me to see
I’m sure you never thought of that
I don’t want any apologies
Your pity for what I am
So before you wave your hand
Just try to understand

You’ll be iluminated
Maybe frustrated
If you try to understand

Satan looking from below
Jesus watching from above
In the court of Gods I’ll stay
And for now I only want to say
That I did it for my fears
But I’m sure that wasn’t enough
I don’t need your excuses
Ashamed feelings coming from you
So before you try to mend
First you have to understand

You’ll be iluminated
Maybe frustrated
If you try to understand

I don’t want your repentance
To ease your heavy conscience
So before you turn your back on me
Try to see what I can be

You’ll be iluminated
Maybe frustrated
If you try to understand



Às vezes as pessoas cometem erros! Mas alguns não têm volta...

27.2.05

Um banco...



Um banco, um jardim, conversas... Estas são as minhas noites de fim-de-semana, passadas com o meu amigo Francisco. Partilhamos emoções, pensamentos, dúvidas, receios, desejos, segredos e muitas outras coisas! Tudo isto ficará na minha memória para sempre...

25.2.05

Lights Off


You were my heart
You were my rope
You were my blood
But now I'm living with your ghost
Living in the past
Trying to close the door
I never seem to suffer for too long
Pain keeps coming from my core

What you say it's good for me
What you do is all right for me
What you say it's so good
Silence changes my mood
We need to save what lasts
'Cause love's fading away
Love's fading away

You're in the sky
On your way to eternity
You turn all the lights off
And you leave me here

What you say it's good for me
What you do is all right for me
What you say it's so good
Silence changes my mood
We need to save what lasts
'Cause love's fading away
And we'll cry and do nothing about it
Love's fading away
Am I unknown to your eyes?

You're in the sky
On your way to eternity
You turn all the lights off
And you leave me here



Quando uma relação chega ao fim há sempre aquele que sofre mais...!

24.2.05

Show-Off


Like a drop of the ‘green fairy’
You go and spread inside my body
Leaving me feeling numb
And overwhelmed with your presence
And in your moments of absence
I create a chaotic environment
All around my emotions
But I know it’s my fault...

Egocentric
I am conceited, I am absorbing
Am I a big lie?
Everything is just ‘show-off’
And you are right
But I can’t reach my inner self
I wish you’d understood that before you left

Like the scent of pure nicotine
You hypnotize me and captivate me
Leaving me craving for more
And whispering to the higher forms
How much you are missed
Now you stand at the door of my heart
Don’t you want to come in?
It’s my fault...

Egocentric
I am conceited, I am absorbing
Am I a big lie?
Everything is just ‘show-off’
And you are right
But I can’t reach my inner self
I wish you’d understood that before you left

And now the portal of hell is open
I am standing right in front of it
With all my broken feelings
I know I’ve made mistakes
But should I pay for this long?!
So come back... come back

Egocentric
I am conceited, I am absorbing
Am I a big lie?
Everything is just ‘show-off’
And you are right
But I can’t reach my inner self
I wish you’d understood that before you left



Um auto-retrato meu no refrão??!! No coments...

23.2.05

Posso Mudar


É melhor nem falar
As palavras doem
É melhor tocar
Às vezes ajuda a acalmar
Tu não vais querer ouvir
O chão move-se debaixo de mim
A estratégia não é tão importante agora
Algo me diz que hoje me vou embora

Apaga este momento
Não me deixes... eu posso mudar

É melhor nem cantar
Os versos fogem
É melhor olhar
Ás vezes ajuda a pensar
Tu não vais querer sorrir
A escuridão enrola-me numa nuvem
Se calhar foi hoje que perdi a razão
Algo me diz que isto não tem perdão

Apaga este momento
Não me deixes... eu posso mudar

O ciúme traz apenas dor
Embora eu não o mostre
Adivinhas o meu pensamento
Mudo a conversa
Algo me diz que sabes aquilo que fiz

Apaga este momento
Não me deixes... eu posso mudar



Algo em português.. é raro! Escrevi-a numa fase menos boa da minha vida: sentia-me dependente do exterior, como se o meu interior não fosse suficiente para me sentir completa. Ainda não o é! Mas sem dúvida que me sinto mais em contacto comigo mesma.

22.2.05

Cry


Who looks after the life of others?
No one's even there when it bothers
Remember when I used to cry
Over those who fly so high

No one counts our souls anymore
Everyone sees looks outside doors
Remember when I used to cry
Over those who selfishly die

Feelings don't control any mind
No one cares if they go on blind
Remember when I used to cry
Over those who always lie

No one knows how low they've grown
About how strange they've become
Remember when I used to cry
Over those who saw the sky

But no one knows how much I cried
Only you my eternal guide



Esta escrevi a algum tempo. Pensei nas pessoas, nas suas atitudes e em como aquela expressão popular 'Cada um por si!' se reflecte cada vez mais na sociedade.

21.2.05

A Star


Maybe I was lost
And I didn't know what was the cost
For happiness
Just a drop of my tears
And everything unfolds in fears
It's like my head spins
And inside
There's nothing to make me blind
I can always see
Even when I don't want to do it
It's a lonely way
With no one on it and I'm fading away

I see me
On a bright night
With nothing but a star
Reminding me how far
Your smile is from me
And I don't know how to get it back to me

Maybe I was scared
And I didn't know you too were bare
Something else
Stroke me and made me realise
You were a surprise
Selling love every time
You're alone
With nothing but your body and soul
I can always see
My lonely self saying goodbye
Leaving to a lonely way
Without you and I start to fade away

I see me
On a bright night
With nothing but a star
Reminding me how far
Your smile is from me
And I don't know how to get it back to me

18.2.05

Recomeçar

Este é o meu novo blog! Nele publicarei alguns esquissos até aqui bem guardados... pelo meio entrará o que o momento proporcionar!